I’ve often been suspect that the level of resistance people put against the LGBTQ community is proportionate to how much those individuals fear that exposure to LGBTQ people will flip their internal switch to being LGBTQ. Meaning, that they are closeted LGBTQ people who hate LGBTQ people because they feel eradicating it from view will save them from the shame they feel from their own impulses.
To this end, they even resort to actions as heinous as murder in an attempt to erase their own shame. This is where society needs to take a hard look at the nature of shame; where it comes from, and how it does not serve them.
By in large shame is a result of religious upbringing. You must be or act a certain way or you will “burn in Hell.” That’s one heck of a powerful control scheme, and it grips people harder than they realize. Seeing an LGBTQ couple is a trigger for that person’s own shame, the burning in Hell narrative that’s etched in the back of their brain overrides any sense of respect for human dignity and forces them to act in a fashion that would likely make their own mother cry.
From my own history, I can see where I may have been less than kind to LGBTQ people, all the while being angry that they were living their life without the stigma of shame. I don’t think I “hated” them, I was just pissed that I didn’t feel free enough to cast off shame and be the person I’d always known I was.
I was 39 years old before I admitted that I’d known I was trans since I was 6. Imagine the level of self hatred one builds in themselves and how that negative energy gets channeled as a result of living in the closet.
From this, I honestly feel that those who harbor the strongest resentments against those in the LGBTQ community are most likely hiding an aspect of their identity that they have been shamed into denying. The only people I think are 100% straight and cisgender are those who carry no prejudice whatsoever.
But what do I know? I’m just someone who spent half their life allowing shame to keep me in a closet about not only my gender but also my sexual orientation. I’ve never felt more free, but by the same token, I’ve never felt so oppressed. That being said, I guarantee those oppressors that I will NOT die in my closet, while they seem to want to die in theirs.
If there is a “Gay Agenda” it’s to live a happy life without being denied the right to do so.
Scandalous, isn’t it?
