Everything you’ve written here is spot on with my own feelings. I know how men think, and to be objectified is as disgusting as it is necessary to feel valid. I suppose it’s that pull to heteronormality. But I know that it’s almost completely impossible for a woman to validate me in this manner, so this is a direction I’m heading in.

Primarily my thoughts around being with men are more on the order of someone taking an interest; holding doors, being cuddly, etc… But no one has expressed an interest, so I don’t think this is really going anywhere. So far my 6 month membership to OKCupid is turning out to be a poor investment. I suspect this effort will be completely fruitless, but even so, I am grateful that my wife has given me permission to pursue it.